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Thursday, February 19, 2009


The day started off ok. I got ready for work. I was FINALLY not feeling like ass. It's almost the weekend...all things told, it was a going to be a great day.

Then I got to work. Set my daily crap out on my desk. WHAT? NO? IT CAN'T BE.....


The horror!!!!!! in the grand scheme of things, not all that bad, but in the grand scheme of my life....SO SO SO BAD! What am I going to do all day? Work? HAHAHAHHA!!!!! I think not! How am I going to catch up with the random people on facebook, or not fall behind on text? It's gonna be ok. I won't cry....or at least...I will TRY and not cry.

Ok...I have to go and *GULP* work now...AKKKK! :-)

Tuesday, February 17, 2009

I am ALMOST human

I can run a household. Give birth to TWO little boys. Pop in a dislocated knee without even a tear, but when it comes to getting the cold/ knocks me on my butt! WHY IS THAT?? For those of you that may just bet getting this lil gem of a bug...hang wont die...but you will want to. Trust me! I wanted nothing more then to just let the flu win and have it take whatever it wanted and just be done with me. UGGG. It was horrible :-(

I am better today, but not back to myself 100%, but I am thankful for the small victory of being able to sit at my desk at work and not be under the desk.'s always the little things that seem to make me happy!!!!!

Thursday, February 12, 2009

I'm sick..

...and grumpy and for the most part should just not be around the human race at the moment. This time of year historically brings out the worst in me, but now that I am near death, it is just so much worse. UUGGG. Yup...I am whining. I will fully own it. This weekend is gonna suck. SUCK.

OK...I am off to pout...

Friday, February 6, 2009

Lots of things about me

I hate those "25 things about me" surveys. HATE THEM. I will do them from time to time, but for the most part pass on them as I never really know what to say. What random 25 things does anyone really wanna know about me? Or sadly, do I really have 25 things that are interesting enough to tell the world? The more I think about it...I see that I really am a boring person!

So since it is Friday, and my brain is not as focused on work as I need it to be...I am going to come up with some random things about...ME!

1- I have a scar on my back from a tick. I was 4-5 and at the time, the stupid blood sucking thing seemed to be the size of a small dog!

2- Snakes scare the living crap out of me. I can't even handle the SOUND of one in the forest while on a hike. Just thinking about it now sent shivers up my spine!

3-I have a small ranch addiction. I would put it on almost every food if I could. Pretty sure that's why my ass is the size it is!

4-For the last time...NO, I have never been with a woman. Not that there is anything wrong with that, I just seem to get that question A LOT and no one ever believes me when I say no. Not sure why.

5-Being happy scares me...almost as much as snakes. Without even knowing it, I will do whatever I can to sabotage something that seems too good to be true. Yeah, I know that is a sad thought and pretty messed up, but if you know my history...pretty sure you know why I do that.

6-I have never met my father. I have come to terms with this, but it still kinda sucks.

7- I have to be on time or early or my heart pretty much stops.

8-As strong as I would like people to think I am, I still cry at almost everything. Why? I have no clue.

9- A simple card is enough to make my heart melt and will be treasured for a lifetime.

10- A hamburger will always make me smile. It can be the worlds most craptastic day, but a burger will make it all go away!

11- If I were to ever get married again (and the chances of that are slim) it would be on a beach.

12- Coffee. I just am in love with coffee.

13- I miss having my tongue pierced....but it was time to look like an adult.

14- To make up for the lack of piercings I will overcompensate with hidden tattoos!

15- My kids really are great little humans. I look at them and just wonder how I got so lucky to be their mom.

16- My heart gets broken more easily then people know. I may not let too many people into my life, but once I do, it's for real and it hurts when that ends.

HMMM....CRAP....I think that I am stuck for the moment. Oh well...I will go and get some more of my love in number 12 and think about more random crap about me.

It's Friday!

YAY! Not that I have anything really going on this weekend, but the thought of two whole days not at work is always a happy one!!!

As I was driving into work this morning, in the rain and in need of new windshield wipers, I found myself dreaming of someplace warm and tropical. I'm thinking that it's time to pack the boys up and head off to Hawaii for a few days. HMMMM....I think I will put some more thought into that before booking anything as thinking about it is one thing, but flying alone with the two crackheads is a whole new thing. But a girl can daydream!!!!

How hard is it to replace windshield wipers?

Thursday, February 5, 2009

This is hard stuff

So after a very short lived stunt at some "pole" classes (no...I never wanted to be a stripper. Just seemed like something fun to do) I thought it would be a hoot to take a burlesque class. And for those of you that don't know what burlesque is...think the Pussy Cat Dolls....but in a wee bit more human form when I do it as I am far from a member of the PCD! Anyhow...I should have known that this class would kick my butt when about 1 minute after signing up for it, I noticed that we had a recital at the end of the class. GEE...THAT'S JUST GREAT. I can't wait to dance around like a tard on stage for all the world to see. I did my best to talk myself out of the class...but seeing as I had already paid for it, I had to go. The class so far (three weeks in) is fun, but at the same time stressful. I am not going to lie, the thought of picking just the perfect name...and then the song...and then the persona is hard stuff. In fact, in three short weeks, it's kinda taking over my life...well.. not so much that I need to go to burlesque anonymous or anything, but enough so that I find in my free time, I am online looking for music and dancing around my house. Tonight I had my boys listen to random tracks from Frank Sinatra. Yeah....they kinda looked at me like I was crazy. HMMMMM....maybe I need BA after all!

My first time blog that is!

Let me just start off by saying that I am NOT a good writer. What comes out on the paper is alot like what goes on in my head...and that can be a wild and crazy place!

I wanted to start this blog because I am into trying new things these days. Things to get me out of my Cancer type shell and out in the world. One can not sit at home alone every Friday and eat Doritos. Well, one could, but one would be fat and covered with that weird orange dust. Kinda not the look that I was going for at this stage in my life! I have more time, I am sure that I will write more and keep things up today as to what is going on in my world.